Everything Is Ready Except The Baby...Apparently

It has been quite a few weeks now since we have been living in "baby could arrive anytime" mode. It gets so tiresome because baby is nearly a week past my due date and I've been "ready" since before 38 weeks. These last few weeks have felt like 3 months. Time is ticking by every so slowly.

We brought out the car seat and baby bouncer and set up the baby bed to get my toddler used to having baby stuff around before baby actually arrives. It has been fun watching him interact with it all and he now carries around one of my old baby dolls and is so sweet with it. I think he's ready for his little sibling to arrive.

Waiting and transitions are seriously so hard. I feel like I constantly have to keep up on laundry, dishes, housework, bills, etc. instead of taking care of those things in my normal speed (it all gets done but I might normally wait to do several loads of laundry at once instead of one every day or so). I feel as if I can't relax because I want the house to remain clean, the dishes clean, the clothes clean, the bills caught up, etc. so that when baby does arrive I don't have to worry about all that and can just concentrate on baby and recovery. However, it is exhausting.

My toddler is an active soul and I love that about him but he does create a great deal more work for me. If I clean one mess he creates another. And it is constantly like this all day long (although some days are worse than others). I just want to be done with this waiting so we can work on getting transitioned and back to "normal" life.

I am 41 weeks tomorrow. I went to 41 weeks 1 day with my toddler. I am just afraid this one will stay put even longer. I am tired. I wake up every 2 hours if not more a night. If I'm gonna be up that often I figure I might as well have the baby to feed and take care of instead of just laying there wishing I could sleep longer.

Although this part of pregnancy is the hardest and feels like the longest I know that the end is near. Baby will be here one way or another a week or less. I just need to keep myself busy and distracted so that the minutes and hours don't feel so long. There is light at the end of the tunnel I just don't quite see it yet. But we will get there soon and I will be ever so thankful to be holding my little one in my arms. It will be SOON!