Being a mom, like many girls, was a dream I had ever since I
was little. I had younger siblings and dolls that I practiced “mothering” on a
regular basis as a child. As I grew
older I became ever independent but always knew that someday I would marry and have
kids.
Well, that someday is now. I have been married for a year
and am a proud mommy of a 3 month old little joy of a boy. Life is exactly as I
ever imagined it would be – better actually. I can’t imagine life any different
than what it is. And yet I struggle; but not with the things that I thought I
would.
I struggle to embrace the change and what people might think. When I got married and then later had a kid I was taken out of the shadows where I liked to hide and was thrown center stage. I didn't know how to handle the attention and I found myself struggling with knowing how to move forward.
Therefore I lingered back, not fully embracing my new life. I was embarrassed and ashamed, somehow, to have any sort of public display of affection with my husband. I felt awkward saying that I am a mom, and I couldn't stand the thought of befriending other moms with kids the same age. I thought that if I held back that I could slow down the change. But in reality all I did was keep myself from experiencing the joys of life and made myself very lonely.
As I have come to this realization I have concluded that I should no longer allow myself to continue in this current pattern. I want to be able to enjoy the life of wife and mother without the needless feelings of embarrassment or shame. I want to embrace it and learn from it. I want to be able to admit publicly that I absolutely love being a wife and mother and that it is one of the best things that has ever happened to me. I want to be real about the struggles and be able to celebrate the victories. I want to be true to who and what I am regardless of how others may view me.
And thus is born: Mom Beginnings.
I struggle to embrace the change and what people might think. When I got married and then later had a kid I was taken out of the shadows where I liked to hide and was thrown center stage. I didn't know how to handle the attention and I found myself struggling with knowing how to move forward.
Therefore I lingered back, not fully embracing my new life. I was embarrassed and ashamed, somehow, to have any sort of public display of affection with my husband. I felt awkward saying that I am a mom, and I couldn't stand the thought of befriending other moms with kids the same age. I thought that if I held back that I could slow down the change. But in reality all I did was keep myself from experiencing the joys of life and made myself very lonely.
As I have come to this realization I have concluded that I should no longer allow myself to continue in this current pattern. I want to be able to enjoy the life of wife and mother without the needless feelings of embarrassment or shame. I want to embrace it and learn from it. I want to be able to admit publicly that I absolutely love being a wife and mother and that it is one of the best things that has ever happened to me. I want to be real about the struggles and be able to celebrate the victories. I want to be true to who and what I am regardless of how others may view me.
And thus is born: Mom Beginnings.
